Digitize me plox

scrapbooking i cant seems to get myself to type out right. I want to do it scabooking and toatlly forget the 'p'

So last night Christie and I went to a scrapbookers meeting last jight at harmony vineyard church. 3 hours never went by so fast! We had a blast and while I was there i got to talk to a lady abotu digital scrapbooking. I have read off and on about it thought it would be somethng cool, didnt want to buy something to do it etc etc. So I never did it.

WELL. I found out all i need is photo shop and some phototshop know how. :)

So i have hit up the free sites and I am not on my scrap booking adventure

cause i got nothing else to do

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She wants to touch me whoa!!!

While I enjoy being bigger than 115lbs this 150 is retarded. I am quitting my birthcontrol. I dot caqre how much I hurt I am bailing off the crap, because on my old one i was 130 and I was able to eat f***ing food. I cant eat crap now and now look like i ate like i fat pig. *emo face* if i just STAYED at this weight i would be fine but it keeps going up, so i am not fine.

mail art addicts.....

Keep your love locked down

*draw circle on wall and band head here*
Japei and Soli, the story that will follow me for expo's to come...
okay so NOT for looking a dog, because I just got rid of mine and i liked the break I was walking with Sindri (my hedgie) and showing him off because I could. I saw PUPPIES! I love puppiws, i will never won ne again though, so I was playing with puppies and in walks this 70 goldendoodle. cream colored, groomed perfect and all. I glanced and thought no more. Go back to table.
heart strings start tugging.
Go back to this dog for time number 2. find out she HAS to go as a set with another dog who cant come for reasons that unless we are interested wont be discussed.
visit times number three and four, they now know who i come to visit.
I call my mommy. she says wait.
I go back to booth and cry internally and look depressed.
Go back time 5 and 6. get handed leash. call mommy and BEG daddy. get a yes.
Get a call monday and find out the otehr dogs story.Japei is a shepard mix. Then owner has a habit of dating abusive guys, one fight Japei walked in between the fight. Jap gets thrown against a wall by the guy in which a huge crack is heard. She is rushed to the emergency 24 hour vet. she has a part of her skull cracked and brain bleeding. She has emergency surgery to let the blood off. She now has random seaizures.
My family has had two severly special needs dogs before, so we decided this be no issue.
SO TONIGHT JAPEI AND SOLI COME TO THERE FOREVER HOME! at age 7 they both need a forever home.
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On the left is japei and thr right is soli

Black dress with the tights underneith...

Pet expo, happly go to with two dogs come home with two more totalling four.... this math is off....

Japei (left) and Soli (right) hopefully (fingers crossed) come home on wendsday :) they are 6 and 8

what else can you do?

Cause i don't care for you fairytales
You're so worried bout the maiden though you know
She's only waiting on the next best thing
Once upon a time in a faraway kingdom
Man made up a story said that i should believe him
Go and tell your white knight that he's handsome in hindsight
But i don't want the next best thing
So i sing and hold my head down and i break these walls round me
Can't take no more of your fairytale love - sarah barellis (sp?)

i miss my kenzie :'(

Anyway. It seems that Beethove has gotten well and can now eat dry Evo food without getting ill anymore. a year later...

So i started to draw again ( i used to when i was young) and I am enjoying it. I hope to take a calss at maple weeds this fall for colored pencils

more house things

So we dont really know about the house on ADA street it has a bunch of flaws infact and so we are kinda iffy on it.

*sighs* we dont need a place until next July but until then it seems like we will just be looking and looking with Ted and Jackie at houses.

We are very blessed by them but it takes work to find a house you know?

so along we trudge, we found another house to look at. Ted says we need to keep looking now becasue the houses will need work and it takes time to finish the sale and la de da. but really a year ahead?

house? please?

http://www.reeceandnichols.com/Listing/ListingDetail.aspx?Search=7e57714c-8c92-45c7-8719-f49695fb9739&Listing=32551929&IRPAgentID=9709999&Image=1&First=1&Last=1&pagesize=10&SearchType=&ListingDistrictTypeID=&FirstLetter=&Sort=1&Cookies=&UseColorBar=false

so the dish is Ted cole is tryiong to buy this house so that kenzie and I can rent it from him
and then have the option to buy it from him

radio is heard here and everywhere

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Things I have the 'Gimmies' for so bad I can hardly see straight:
http://www.pupcity.com/images/adpics/08290085415936_1.jpg - i dont want to carefor it but I want it. actually if it was a mini i might care for it... might...

http://i66.photobucket.com/albums/h278/davidblitz/BabyHedgehogs4.jpg - COME ON GIRLS! GIVE ME A BABY GIRL

http://media.motortopia.com/files/5249/vehicle/4611e3ffc1ddb/clean2.jpg - I can;t wait until we snag this car

http://www.archstonerealestate.com/images/house_for_sale.jpg - I WANT A HOUSE NOT AN APARTMENT

http://www.geocities.com/johnweedonuk/WeddingDress.jpg - still like a year left till the wedding

WARNING --- This is an adult statement here--- http://futureupdate.files.wordpress.com/2008/08/condom.jpg - married sex w00000000000000000t

and with that comes - http://www.tinytush.com/images/mother_and_baby.jpg - a baby ARG

that is my list of the gimmies :P

this is the right one

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gPmMa-NIf4Y&feature=related


and I only ever get a single ONE. HOW LAMEO!

Sindri is starting to look so very much like his grandfather Brocklet, he is infact very handsome.

He learned to run on his wheel two days ago, it took a little bit of work. I put him on the first time and he spazzed. the second time he walked slow and the third time he was off!

Mackenzie and I are i think switching to T-Mobile this month, either at the very end or really close. I am getting the white and turqouse samsung gravity. i saw it first at cricket called the messanger, and then charlotte got it. *pout* We almost always end up picking the same thing, and she usually picks it first... I could get in in black and lime but what ever, i am flattering you charlie. Kenzie doesn't know what he wants, typical, however it will i am sure be the 304752857489 dollar phone that kicks butt and sucks at signal. He always has to have something flashy *le sigh* I dont know why he just cant pick out something........ normal? cheap?
functional?
in stead of WHAM BAM LOOK MAN!

We sat down the other day and went over wants and needs for the relationship since we both seemed to think we knew but OBVIOIUSLY kept missing by a long shot. It went well and things are back on base now

*eats taquitos* these are the best food seriously ever invented i think.... maybe.... in the running....

I decided i think that if i can get the state to pay for my education, then I will go to Paramedic school, of no, then I wont. because I dont plan on using it directly, I woudl use a CNA faster really i would, for my job now. I need to look into all this stuff and ugh this is such a pain.

i mean it. just a royal effing pain. why on earth cant it be easier?




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i do it for the comments

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gPmMa-NIf4Y&feature=related


and I only ever get a single ONE. HOW LAMEO!


Truth by ~VisualofDrM on deviantART

think geek plox

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I'll pull my hair back as i scream.....

.... I DONT REALLY WANT TO BE A QUEEN!!!!! - meet virgina by train


a post of NOTHING other than qoutes and song lyrics becasue I dont have a damn thing else to do.....
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It is national eating disorder week. Come on guys skinny isnt the only eating disorders..... try binge eaters....

I will say you know WOW i recovered from one eating disorder, being bulemic, isnt that awesome?!! now i sometimes binge eat, but dont throw up. I feel so attractive at 140. so my mother who is anorexic can be sorry and wish she was me....
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"Dont tell me if i am dying.... cause I don't want to know" - thriving ivory
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And truth be told I miss you
And truth be told I'm lying - all american rejects
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SINDRI IS HOME!
O my he is such a charmer now i see why people love them so!
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My goal as a future breeder

no secret, i can't wait to breed hedgies. and I know that is talked alot about why yuo breed.

Maybe it is such a thought of perfection, but i would love to be able to help everyone who wanted one get one. Because i know for me, cost, really has kind of held me back. so ther is this three fold thing of one costing 80 dollars to 120.

first: if you cant afford the cost of the animal can you really afford to keep it?

second: you have to break even some how cause every one knows you wont gain money

third: if i drop my price alot it will cut into everyone elses buisness

but in my mind there just has to be a way to make hedgehogs more well known. Because seriously, they are like the bomb.

I am hoping to start a library program up about them, and read some little hedgie book and teach aboutthem and take Sindri with me... I need to find out how to do that...

Sindri

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that is my hedgies color, pinto. he is choclate pinto exactly.

rumor has it he has a BIG spot on his left side and a smaller one on the left.

Sindri - small and trivial

I get him the weekend of the 21st OR the 28th. so, yeah can't wait. he is a little breeder also. *shrugs* I guess when you've got connections you get a great hedgie.

Laura will I think take him over night in april at the expo to breed him, and possible again in june at the HHfest, WHICH BY THE WAY My daddy is going with me to :) I hope at the show i can bring home a few ribbons

Free to be me!

At twenty years of age I'm still looking for a dream
A war's already waged for my destiny
But You've already won the battle
And You've got great plans for me
Though I can’t always see

(Chorus) ‘Cause I got a couple dents in my fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
On my own I'm so clumsy
But on Your shoulders I can see
I'm free to be me

When I was just a girl
I thought I had it figured out
My life would turn out right, and I'd make it here somehow
But things don't always come that easy
And sometimes I would doubt

(Chorus) And you’re free to be you

Sometimes I believe that I can do anything
Yet other times I think
I've got nothing good to bring
But You look at my heart and You tell me
That I've got all You seek
And it’s easy to believe
Even though

Chorus)

by i cant spell her name.....

cause I am funny

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You are everything to me...

wedding! We get to announce the engagement in like 2 weeks?!?!?!

It is going down at the bank!

*sigh* I am ready. It is going to be on EITHER feb 13th 2010 or in june or late in 2010. we are hoping that first part of febuary. But we will have to see. so. you know.

*whine* why does it have to cost so much to adopt?!?! How am I supposed to find a baby?! I will have my own baby, yes, but what happens when I want to adopt a baby???? *whines* I want a baby. Ready to be married. Ready. Ready.'


Ready to be a mommy............... TO OLIVER!

a lady aint what she wears but what she knows

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mHXEE7Pi6iQ

I love that song! Video by India arie.

Yesterday I wokee up and I weighed myself. Yes it was still nothing new. 129.8 but it was .2 pounds less then i usually weigh... i hadn't eaten yet either.

I decided I was going to put a bit of effort into dressing nice. So with just a little bit of know how and my normal everyday nothing special body I dressed. and I went to church, and i was told so many times how good I looked, how pretty I was. It contenued throughout the day.

Did I feel pretty? heck yes! was I still wearing walmart clothes. of course I was! so what was it that made me still look abosolutly spo attractive?

Because I KNEW i looked good, Because I felt good.

Heidi who I work for is a nice healthy 250lbs at 5'10. Is she skinny? no! is she always happy with her body, no. But when she dresses up (in her maternity shirts) she feels attractive, and hot damn is she!

"A lady is not what she wears but what she knows!" - india arie

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Without my eating disorder i am still sexy as all get out

I am one of the smartest most intelligent women you will ever meet. I may not always come off as that. i say stupid things and have ditzy moments. But I can speak 2 langagues fluently i am partally learned in a third. I have travleled all over the united states doing mission work. I have taught sunday school for 5 years. i have more experiance with special needs as a care assistant and educator then alot of people my age. If I have ever studied a subject, you best bet that i can tell you anything about it. Everyone mocks me for it, but I know so much about animals it is crazy.

I am a beautiful woman

The website is crashed, the sky is falling

Much to my LARGE irritation the gallery at Pogstar is down :(

WTF! How am I supposed to see the pictures of Oliver that I KNOW are there! or at least, I suspect. or I hope?

Jacob is playing with a toy and we are watching Oswald.

Grandma and Grandpa are down.

Between Dad and McKeah my house is worse than ever, oddly enough it has caused my mom and I to be so much closer. Because mostly, we just don't want to be down stairs.

For Oliver I have gotten all of the following, seriously, what more can he want?!?!
20 gallon tank
wheel
snack food
water bottle
bowl
90 quart home

I NEED to get 2 heating disks and then once I find out exactly his food! and a hedgebag!

"Current Litters - Ready Early to Mid February
Aldana x Corcoran - on hold
Bree x Hades - on hold
Coelura x Ash - on hold "

that bold, is oliver! his brother is a breeder!

jacob is holding my foot!

I wanna be like you! (laura)

So besides the obvious reasons of my initial friendship with Laura (The breeder adn
owner of Pogstar Hedgehogs) being that she breeds hedgehogs.

But when I really lay in bed at night (because I love to think there and will go to
bed hours early for the time thinking) and I think or rather try and figure out what
it is that I see her in that made me pick her. I mean I started looking at hedgehog
valley first, and you know there was just something that didn't really catch my eye.They both were mom's, both had kids, but you know it was just something. Not that
the people at HHV are not amazing people, or great breeders.

So this last week, since I am sure she has been a very busy mom, but I have checked
my e-mail probably I kid you not 12 times a day waiting to hear from her or see a
picture. I have spent time back reading on the blog and finally I know what it is.

Growing up at our small farm was crazy. We had 27 animals and heated with wood and
homeschooled all while Dad stayed home with us. Mom was always gone at work and Dad
always home, and with my Dad comes the very chaos that is my father. Growing up I
was an angry kid, I hated life, I hated everything that was it. But I knew that if I
survived to it, That I was going to be a stay at home mom. Somehow, by God's grace
alone, I made it.

I made it past the horror that I created in college. and then I started LIFE as an
active willing participant in my 19th year. in August, just the month after my
birthday. I took classes, I tried, I worked hard. I met Mackenzie. We started
dating.

Was dating him easy? no. has it been an easy 14 months? no. will it be easy being
married? no.

But the comes where I see so much in common.

All I want in life is to stay home, on Mack's small but sufficent income, with our
children. I want to homeschool them. I want to adopt one or two and have 4 or so
kids. These things I have always known I wanted. To have them know the very amazing
this that is all creatures great and small. Ultamatly being a safe place for animals
who needed it.

and I guess when I decided on her, I saw alot of what I want in the things she
accomplished in life.

I am a total fan girl (for lack of better term) I am excited to get my baby from
her. To keep learning abotu hedgies, to share Olivers life with her. The pet expo?
if she is there count me there ALLL day one day with her.

I would love to someday have my own little baby hedge hogs, but you know, that may
not work out so perfect for me. if not I call it fine, I will love the one's I own,
and will love the new found friend I have in Laura.

Re: imagine that

a few weeks back Charlotte wrote about dreamers and realists. She is very much a realist, Dennis so much a dreamer. I often think of myself as a dreamer and NOT a realist. Yet in Mackenzie and I I have something of a 'problem' that is not such a traditional one. In me being a dreamer I say I want this and I am going to do that. I am going to go get 50 mroe peircings and 20 tattoo's do I ever do it? Of course not! when mack dreams, sometimes I do such a bad job at forgetting and get all angry. When he says he wants a car, he actually tries to get his dream but I never do, so I am the mean realty breaker when I say, we can't afford two cars. It makes me feel like a jerk sometimes (okay, often) to have to break bad news. But do i really have to break it?. Or will he run to the edge stick his foot in the water play in it and dash back? Do i just over react? I will say straight up, I am a reacter, i DONT just wait and see, i plan 7 months in advance.

Oliver comes home at the end of the month, I am not doing such a hot job at being patient :\